In 1984 Joanna Connors was working as a reporter for the Cleveland Plain Dealer when, on an assignment, she was raped at knife point in a college theater. She writes of her thoughts during the assault: This is it. My rape. I knew it was coming. Every woman knows it, anticipates it, fears it, yet also doesn’t believe it will happen to her. And now here it is. My turn.
The following day the rapist is caught and later sentenced to prison, while Connors attempts to move on with her life and forget about the assault. She has two children and continues her career in journalism.
This is it. My rape. I knew it was coming. Every woman knows it, anticipates it, fears it, yet also doesn’t believe it will happen to her. And now here it is. My turn.
However, of course, she has not forgotten the rape and the trauma comes to surface again years later when on college visits with her daughter, as a student guide points out the “blue lights” where students can call for help if threatened. Connors then decides to tell her children about the rape, and courageously and honestly face the assault, while also seeking to discover the story of her rapist.
I Will Find You is an important book that brings us face-to-face with the violence that too many women in our communities experience, while also taking an empathetic look at the life of the man who raped her, and exploring our need to find ways to end the cycles of violence.